Following the string of recent tragedies, like many of you, I’ve found myself at a loss for what to say. My heart has been affected in different ways–fear, sadness, anger, shame for a society that’s so snarky and indignant, convicted, overwhelmed by touching responses. For many days, I felt almost paralyzed, trying to process my thoughts and come to terms with living and raising children in this world.
But then I thought–why am I so surprised?
When so many have abandoned God for self-seeking purposes, why am I surprised that evil runs rampant around us? If He is the light of the world (John 8:2), and so many have abandoned Him, why am I suprised that we are living in a time of darkness?
My morning Bible reading let me to the prophet Joel today, in chapter 2, where he prophesied to the kingdom of Judah. In the beginning, it’s quite the eerie chapter, declaring the “day of the Lord,” a time of judgment for those in Judah who refused to seek repentance. It brings a reminder of God’s wrath, which like Judah, many have started to dismiss completely or take lightly.
In the first two verses of Joel 2, we read:
Blow the trumpet in Zion, And sound an alarm in My holy mountain!
Let all the inhabitants of the land tremble; For the day of the Lord is coming,
For it is at hand:
A day of darkness and gloominess, A day of clouds and thick darkness,
Like the morning clouds spread over the mountains.
The next few verses describe utter desolation. A devouring fire, people writhing in pain with their faces drained of color…the imagery in this passage (verses 3-10) is beautifully disturbing.
And then, Joel says this:
The Lord gives voice before His army, For His camp is very great;
For strong is the One who executes His word.
For the day of the Lord is great and very terrible; Who can endure it?
It’s a reminder that yes, the day of God’s punishment is terrible and disturbing, but also that the Lord is in control. And in the midst of despair and great suffering, His omnipotent power is something tangible and everlasting. We can bank on it, and it should give us hope… provided we are inclined to repentance.
Following verse 11, in 12-13 we see that offer of hope extended to Judah–the same hope that we can access through turning back to Christ.
“Now, therefore,” says the Lord, “Turn to Me with all your heart, With fasting, with weeping, and with mourning.”
So rend your heart, and not your garments; Return to the Lord your God,
For He is gracious and merciful, Slow to anger, and of great kindness; And He relents from doing harm.
This next set of verses really spoke to me about where we are in society today. It is not a call for Judah to cower or to complain. It’s not a call for indignance or wallowing. It’s a call to action. A call to pause what they were doing in this grief and sin-stricken world to fulfill their own selfish desires and rather to fast, santctify, assemble, and weep.
Blow the trumpet in Zion, Consecrate a fast, Call a sacred assembly; Gather the people, Sanctify the congregation, Assemble the elders, Gather the children and nursing babes; Let the bridegroom go out from his chamber, And the bride from her dressing room. Let the priests, who minister to the Lord, Weep between the porch and the altar; Let them say, “Spare Your people, O Lord, And do not give Your heritage to reproach,
That the nations should rule over them. Why should they say among the peoples, ‘Where is their God?’”
As we banter our opinions back and forth and reject or neglect His truth, are the likes of ISIS sneering at us and asking the same question?
The great hope begins in verse 18:
Then the Lord will be zealous for His land, And pity His people.
God is a god of compassion. He loves us because we are His creation. His heart is broken over our defiance and self-seeking. But, he is, according to Hebrews 11:6, a rewarder of those who dilligently seek Him.
The beauty of Joel 2 is the promise given in its last verses–for the spririt of God to be poured out to us. It’s a promise of deliverance. And a promise that has already been given.
In Luke 4:16-21, it tells of Jesus reading from Isaiah 61 on the Sabbath day. He chose this passage from verses 1 and 2:
“The Spirit of the Lord is upon Me, Because He has anointed Me To preach the gospel to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,To proclaim liberty to the captives And recovery of sight to the blind, To set at liberty those who are oppressed; To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord.”
Verse 19 gives even deeper hope. There is an acceptable year of the Lord. And we do have a Lord who shines light in the darkness. And as the passage continues, we see the evidence of this promise being delivered.
Then He closed the book, and gave it back to the attendant and sat down. And the eyes of all who were in the synagogue were fixed on Him. And He began to say to them, “Today this Scripture is fulfilled in your hearing.”
It’s our own selfishness and stubbornness that leads us into darkness. Repentance is simple, really. Turn your path away from self and toward God. Dive into Scripture, seek His will, and follow it rather than your own. When you feel that indignance bubble in your veins, stop to ask yourself if you are really listening to Him or yielding to temptation.
If all of society began walking in His light, we’d have no more darkness.
Spare time isn’t such a good thing for me. If I have too much of it, worry completely takes over my entire being. I start thinking about everything that can and will go wrong. I say will, because as soon as this thought forms in my head, it’s like it’s already happened.
Is that you? Do you ever find yourself stressing over something small to the point that it consumes you?
We all know what the Bible says about this. Matthew 6:25 tells us not to be anxious about our life, and 6:34 reminds us that today’s trouble is sufficient–we need not worry about tomorrow’s trouble.
Well, confession. This past school year, after three weeks of snow days, I was worried about my students and the ACT. They hadn’t been engaged in focused classroom work. And I feared my really awesome, well-deserving kids would possibly score lower than they would have normally because of this. It was on my mind so much that I had nightmares about it days before the test.
Dream 1: We had to take the test in a raging hot attic. They kept forgetting to bring us things like pencils and such, so a lot of kids ran out of time because they had to share the handful of pencils I had.
Dream 2: My amazing angel students (They really were the best kids) turned into little ACT-shirking demon children. They were talking the whole time, wouldn’t stay in their seats, ran outside between sessions. It was a disaster.
Dream 3: We’re in the middle of the test and a tornado hits
See what I mean? Thing is, intellectually, I already knew what would happen. My well-behaved students would arrive at school early that day, because they’d be nervous, too. They’d be in their seats fidgeting, straightening their pencils, praying they could remember how to do all the math problems. And they’d try really, really hard, because they normally do. And guess what? They did fine!
So, why all the worry?
I read a blog post or heard a sermon once about how Satan is like a thief. It talked about how he stole our faith and placed thoughts of fear, doubt, and disbelief instead. And also, how these thoughts come from his deception. The idea was basically how we need to blame the right person for our worry, and realize that even though it’s a somewhat involuntary, physical reaction, it’s still sin.
If this is the case, then it seems we’d need some way to process our worry and make it easier to see the flaws in our logic. At the beginning of this year, I started a prayer journal. The plan was to physically write my fears every day in a notebook. I stopped, because my children got into the notebook for paper, and it bothered me that they might read my fears and become insecure themselves. So, I took to my computer, and now type them out in a file that I don’t save.
The simple practice of getting my irrationalities on paper has made a lot of difference. Just as I can go through a scene with a character and find holes in the plot, I can also spot holes in my logic about who’s in control.
Then, it becomes a very easy process. Pray about it, wait for God’s outcome, accept it as His will.
What do you do to ease your worries?